Managed to feel like an awkward dunce today. Yay! Gotta love what that does to the self-esteem...
Spent the day at uni. Walked past an old schoolfriend's sister-in-law. We also have a couple of mutual friends. I've had quite a few random conversations with her in the past, and have also been kept up to date with superficial goings on in her life. So, I stopped to say hi. She had no idea who I was. And I couldn't just throw my name at her - it was quite a longwinded explanation. "I went to school with x, and I know y, and z's kids and my kids go to swimming lessons together, and you know my ex-husband because..." That sort of thing. Awkward.
Thought I'd console myself with a coffee from the library cafe. The queue was enormous. The youth of today seem to have forgotten how to sleep in, skip classes, leave papers to the last possible moment, or simply drop out. Once upon a time only mature-age students were to be found in the library at the very beginning of semester. Not anymore. I finally got to the counter. And the library's fire alarm went off. I had to forego my coffee and pour out of the library with the rest of the mob. Only I forgot to leave the book I hadn't yet borrowed behind. So the security bar at the exit wouldn't open as I was leaving. It caused quite a sudden stop, with a throng of people potentially exiting a fire behind me. I had to push back past a few of those whose escape I had delayed to put the book safely down (potentially to be engulfed by flames), before I too could save my caffeine-free self. Awkward.
The guest lecturer for my seminar was my supervisor. He is an amazing man - brilliant, charismatic, inspiring, he overflows with knowledge and analysis. At the end of his enlightening talk, he asked for questions, and the room was quiet. So, from some martyrish motivation I asked an incredibly simple question which was answered promptly. So, a few moments later, compelled by some sort of need to redeem myself, I asked the most inane question that has ever passed my lips. This respectful and respected man just stared at me in puzzlement for a few seconds before speaking. Dun-Dun-Dunce. About an hour later, the incredibly intelligent, confident, way-too-perky, high achiever sitting beside me eluded to my question when clarifying her own point, in a slow-speaking manner to spell it out for the dumbarse. Yah for me today!
